Waiting is REALLY Worth It

I remember that day vividly. On a warm summer evening in July, I was feeling a sudden inspiration all the while being over cumbered with grief from a broken relationship, to start a blog. I excitedly texted my good friend Jinny that I would turn my aching pain into words for a part of my story and she couldn’t have been more thrilled for me. Writing really is a coping mechanism for me to release stubborn emotions. I frantically searched and found multiple sites on how to set up a blog, etc. I picked a site, a name, and what my writing would be based on. I then took it to the next level and clicked on the plus icon to start my first post!

That’s when it hit me.

I knew what I had to write about. I suddenly felt less excited and more anxious and sad. If I were to get my message out there as well as my emotions, I knew I was going to have to face them.

I had to re-experience the pain, anger, fear, and sadness I felt about that broken relationship and to find a way to put them into words and share it with strangers. That was NOT an easy thing to do. I knew I had to turn to God and pray my heart out about it. As time went on, my heart was letting go a lot of intense emotion and I felt an overwhleming peace about my past.

I wrote about my pain and how I coped with it (only through the power of Jesus Christ). I wrote about the seasons I had experienced: my love season with God and the importance of singleness, the pain with dating and to watch out for wolves in sheep clothing, and eventually about my season of severe depression and where I considered suicide last year.

This post today is a loving one. A post that reminds my heart why I started this blog in the first place. I’m sitting here at my black kitchen table with a mason jar full of sweet tea, glancing over at my husband of almost 2 months, just thanking Abba Father above that every tearful, daunting, dark nights I cried from sadness, the days screaming in my car full of anger, and praying and worshiping until my lungs almost collapsed led to this: waiting is REALLY worth it.

I found the love I was looking for in a person, but it goes beyond that. I found someone whom I love getting to drink coffee with every single morning. Whom I love getting to pick groceries and figure out a budget plan with every month. A love that lasts more than a Sunday. 3 years ago I was broken, lost, and then found me. I fell in love with being alone and enjoying me. Now, I fell in love with my husband and never want to be without him.

Purest Bliss

The sun poured into my window like a flowing stream

Its colors of orange and yellow bursting with gleam

I arose differently that day, as if I were on a cloud

No dark storm or aching pain could ever overcrowd

I swooped up the lace dress draped with jewels

Twirling and dancing as my feet hit against the toole

This day had finally come, the day I have dreamt

The man I was about to marry, who will forever bring my heart content

My life changing for the better, my heart at the fullest

My friend, my husband, my love of the purest bliss

 

“Living as A Modern Day Ruth: Day Four”. By: Meldie Rose Jordan. 

Well everyone, we are the last and final chapter of the book of Ruth, and might I say what an incredible story this was! We learned about a woman who had lost her husband, traveled to a foreign land, and had to work long days just to provide for her and her mother in law. Ruth could have turned to many different routes and would have missed out on so many blessings. But, she chose to trust God and followed through on a path unknown. And from that  Act of obedience she eventually found a kind, noble, and loving man of God. Remember how I told you this book has a happy ending? Well let’s dive in! 

Ruth Chapter four starts out with Boaz discussing with the family redeemer of Naomi and ten witness of the his town. When Boaz approached him, he told him about how Naomi was selling the land that belonged to her former husband, Elimelech. Boaz explained to the family redeemer that if he was to choose to inherit this land, he also had to take Ruth’s hand in marriage. The man insisted that Boaz should take his place and inherit the land, since the man thought it would interfere with managing his already ownes land. So, Boaz agreed, and as an Israel custom in “authorizing transactions”, Boaz removed his sandal and proclaimed in front of the previous family redeemer and the ten leaders of the town that he would inherit the land of Elimelech and take Ruth’s hand in marriage. God immediately went to work and after Ruth and Boaz wed, they slept together and they had a son, Obed. Naomi was filled with joy because after losing two of her sons, she had gained a new one (Boaz being a close relative to Naomi, it was all part of God’s plan). 

The town’s women were so pleased to see Naomi filled with life again. “The neighbor women said, “Now at last Naomi has a son again!” And they named him Obed. He became the father of Jesse and the grandfather of David.” Ruth‬ ‭4:17‬ ‭NLT‬‬ 

Now this next part explains the blood line of how Boaz is connected to Jesus Christ: “This is the genealogical record of their ancestor Perez: Perez was the father of Hezron. Hezron was the father of Ram. Ram was the father of Amminadab. Amminadab was the father of Nahshon. Nahshon was the father of Salmon. Salmon was the father of Boaz. Boaz was the father of Obed. Obed was the father of Jesse. Jesse was the father of David.” Ruth‬ ‭4:18-22‬ ‭

It is all connected. Through Ruth’s act of obedience, she continued to carry the bloodline of Christ. We would have never read these miraculous stories of King David if Ruth and Boaz didn’t commit their lives to God’s will. This book demonstrates the act of God’s promises and how He can create something beautiful in a ugly mess. Things won’t always go to plan, but when we choose to trust and believe in His word, the pain we feel will only be temporary. We can seek out His face and know any trial we face, whether it’s waiting in singleness, dealing with heart break, or handling marriage difficulties, there is nothing God won’t handle and we don’t need to be afraid to let go, be still, and to trust His works.