“The Day I Really Found Love.” By: Melodie Rose Jordan. 

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” ‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭1:7‬ ‭NLT‬‬Coming into the life of singleness, I was like how most people are: scared, angry, lonely, and broken. There were a lot of restless nights, and empty chest feeling days. I longed for that person from time to time, and things didn’t end well at all at the time. But that’s when God began His work. He wanted to show me what real love really is. 
I know most people don’t look back on a day where a long term relationship ended as a good thing, but that’s the only way I can express my situation. It has been a year already that I chose to walk into a path unknown, just like Ruth. And it has been the best decision I have ever made. 

As months went by, I entered a season of isolation. I had to cut off all of my past in order for me to really focus on God. I spent day and night in prayer, and that is actually when I started to get deep into blogging. I fell in love with reading again, and I began to really learn just who Jesus really is. Also, I found a quote that has stuck by me: “I want to be a woman that finishes well.” That quote pushed me into losing weight. I ventured out and found a nearby lake that had a four mile track. I was intimidated at first, but I slowly adjusted to the length of the walk, and I have been going ever since. I have lost 30 pounds so far. 

What message I’m really trying to say here is, I know my worth. I know I am loved. I know that I can be happy, independent, and mature without being in a man’s shadow. I learned so much about myself. I used to be mentally/spiritually immature, I used to be close minded about learning and trying new things, I used to be so lazy, I used to hold grudges and refused to forgive, but I learned that forgiveness is a key in setting yourself free. I learned about loving others more than yourself. I learned about praying for your enemies, even if they are causing you nothing but pain. But, most of all, I used to be so far from God and His endless love for me. I know God had me go through this year for me to understand that I am more than what any man I’ve been with tells me. I am grateful for the pain, I am grateful for the loss, and I am grateful for the lonlieness. My heart has developed a different kind of love. I am so blessed to have really found Jesus. 

“The Road Jesus Took.” By: Melodie Rose Jordan. 

“Rejoice, O people of Zion! Shout in triumph, O people of Jerusalem! Look, your king is coming to you. He is righteous and victorious, yet he is humble, riding on a donkey— riding on a donkey’s colt.” ‭‭Zechariah‬ ‭9:9‬ ‭NLT‬‬
Today is Palm Sunday, and I want to write to you tonight on the significance of this day. As we read this verse in the book of Zechariah, we can put ourselves in some dirty sandals and watch from the crowd, in awe of what was to come. From the gates of Jerusalem, you and I can see a donkey carrying on his back the Man of Heaven. The Man who healed so many lame and broken souls. The Man who helped sinners to become saved. The Man who rose the dead inside of you and I. The Man who you I didn’t know at the time, was sent down to be crucified by…you and I. 

Can you just imagine you are Jesus for a moment? Can you just grasp on the fact that these people were raising palm branches, celebrating Him as their friend, only for them to start raising fists at Him a week later? Now, I don’t want to put a damper on this day, but that is the logistics of this unfortunately. 

Good news for you and I, we have something to celebrate every Palm Sunday. We can decorate our homes and churches because Jesus is ALIVE and WORTH CELEBRATING! 

For a moment, think of yourself being apart of that crowd. Think of all the times Jesus has been faithful to you. Think of all the times where He comforted you in your agony, when a simple song or prayer from a loved one helped heal your open wounds. Let’s all celebrate as if Jesus was riding on a donkey colt into our city right now! 

“When You Love Others More.” By: Melodie Rose Jordan. 

“If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect.”‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5:47-48‬ ‭NLT‬‬

It was a hot October afternoon and the sun wasn’t the only thing beaming hot red that day. I remember leaving work, fumed like a train horn because once again work was a complete disaster. On top of that, I lost a close friendship at the time, so my feelings were a rollercoaster of a mess. As I was driving home angry as can be, I looked over to my left and saw a homeless man surrounded by trash and was making something out of the grass next to him. I instantly felt a pang of guilt because here I am acting like a drama queen, when this man has to go around to find scraps of food to eat and where to find shelter for the night. I decided to pull into a nearby drive thru and picked him up some food to eat. As I parked I thought to myself, “what if this guy is, crazy? Am I putting myself in danger? What if he asks for money? 

Jesus is a great example of “hangin’ with the outcasts.” The priests and even His own disciples questioned why Jesus often hung out with prostitutes, tax collectors, and drunks. Jesus knew of the small chatter against Him, so he decided to teach His disciples important lessons on loving others. One lesson that sticks out the most is in Matthew 5 verses 47-48: “If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect.”

Wow! What a bold statement, right? Sometimes I can let my pride and judgement overcome my mind and I am quick to react to negative thoughts. I can look at a guy with torn shoes and a dirt stained shirt and think, “man, he looks gross. Glad I’m not around him!” That man just gave over half his life savings to a local charity. Or, the girl with the skimpy skirt and crop top standing on the side of the road and think, “man, what is she doing out here? Selling her body?” That girl just got abandoned by her fourth foster home, and she’s looking in the wrong ways for love. 

To finish my story about my encounter with the homeless man, when I gathered the courage to meet him, he looked at me with a huge smile and said, “please take this.” It was an art piece he made out the grass. He didn’t ask for money or anything, he noticed me and gave to me. What a world this would be if we were all like that man. 

I pray for you tonight that you will examine your heart and ask yourself, “am I just loving me? Or do I need to love others more? 

“Jealous, Much?” By: Melodie Rose Jordan. 

Have you ever felt jealousy? I mean, it is a silly question. I believe jealous was wired into our human DNA, but I’m talking about the blood boiling, cheek burning, fist curling kind of jealousy. I can recall a sad time. 

I was in my senior year, a lot of my bad times were around this point unfortunately. I was very involved with choir, and every year we had a “masquerade” show where we got to dress up and sing Broadway musicals. Sounds cool right? Well, it was. It was also very competitive. You see, if you wanted to do a solo, you had to pick a specific piece, practice for months on end, and audition for the choir director. (Ps. He was not the nicest man to be around). He was very strict and kind of off putting. 

So, for FOUR years I practiced this one particular song. I sang in the shower, in between classes, and on my walks home from school. I got to the audition, confident as ever, and sang my best. My director said I did fairly well and it sounded promising. As the call backs came, I saw that he gave my solo to a junior who was shy and barely knew the words. I cannot even begin to express my jealousy. I let my anger and gossiping take over, and ruined my image with Christ.

Have you ever had a moment of jealousy? Let’s take a look at how God looks at jealousy: “For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and evil of every kind.” ‭‭James‬ ‭3:16‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Ouch, right? Evil and disorder of every kind. When Jesus walked the earth, I am sure there were many people, including His own disciples, who were envious of His God given powers. I’m sure Peter wished He was the one to successfully walk on water like Jesus. I’m sure Timothy was jealous that Jesus could heal the sick with just the command of His words. And I’m sure Judas was envious of Jesus’s reputation. But, Jesus didn’t portray His talents to win friends and show off, he did so we could be served and to trust Him. When someone else gets something you want, remember that everyone’s plan is different. As much as I wanted that solo, I know that I was trying to gain self ambition and attention, which would have deceived God. Just remember that God will redeem you, just wait and instead of giving into the green monster of jealousy, ask Jesus to give you His heart so that you can love and support others just as He did. 

“I am…” By: Melodie Rose Jordan

Who or what defines you? Your job? Your hobbies? Your relationships?

Maybe you’re the CEO of a huge franchise, and you go home to a luxury house full of luxury items. Yet…there is still too much space. 

Maybe you just got invited to a huge party by high maintenance guests, and you’re being adorned by swarms of people. Yet…you still feel loneliness in a crowded room. 

Maybe you’re on the streets again, hitting up some guys for a smoke or pill. Yet…not even the high can take away the pain.

Maybe you just got your heart broken, and you have to accept that person you still deeply love, is in love with someone else. 

Your occupation calls you CEO, but the enemy still calls you “a money hoarder.”

Your friends say they will always be there for you, but the enemy calls you “nothing worthwhile” 

Your heart tells you that certain person still cares for you, but the enemy says “you will never be loved” 

Your substances make you feel free, but the enemy says “you’re in chains for life” 

I want to know something, labels are not in place of identity. If the world says you are a “rich scum”, God says you are His inheritance. (Galatians 3:19) if the world says you will “never amount to any worth”, God looked at you worthy of everything, even more than diamonds.  (Isaiah 43:4) if this world calls you a “drug addict or lowlife trash” God calls you His child, love of His life. (Genesis 1:27)

Your world label has no worth, no meaning, and no power. God has called you His love, His prize, His creation. Now, who do you say you are? 

“Jesus Loves.” By: Melodie Rose Jordan. 

This post is for the one who is feeling alone tonight. 

The one who keeps glancing at their phone, awaiting that one special call from that one special someone. 

The one that just got off a late shift and is driving through an hour route.

The one who just got stood up by the same friend. 

The one who just broke off an engagement. 

The one who is standing on a ledge, debating if your life is worth it.

The one who feels like their breath is a waste of space.

The one who is left out on every social outing. 

The one who is laying in a strangers bed, feeling so dirty and used. 

The one who is staring at a pill in their hand, thinking that is the only thing that will get them through the night. 

The one who just drank three bottles, and still does not feel numb. 

The one who does not know what real love is. 

Let me tell you something, friend. There is someone who loves you. 

He loves every hair on your head. 

He loves your weight, height, and shape. 

He loves that you drink your coffee dark, and how you love to go out and adventure.

He loves you when you are with the right people, and the wrong. 

He loves you when you have harmed yourself late at night again. 

He loves you even though you make a mistake every single day. 

He loves when you cry out to Him when you feel so much pain. 

He loves you so much, he endured public flogging. 

He wore a crown of thorns; piercing into His skin. He let us mock, and spit at Him. 

He let us hammer nails into His hands and feet. 

He let us hang His body, covered with innocent blood, on a rugged tree. 

He let us watch Him die. 

He loves you so much, He didn’t think His life would be worth it without you. 

Unlike this world, Jesus knows you, and still loves you. 

Jesus dying our deserved death was unbearable, but what a reward to know that God won everything, which is us. 

Jesus is alive, and He wants you to be alive as well. 

Live loved, my beautiful friend. ❤

“6 years.” By: Melodie Rose Jordan.

I had no idea at the time that February 27th, 2011 would be the most significant day of my life. I awoke as normal. I picked out my outfit for the day, and jumped in my Nan’s car with my two other sisters. We arrived at our community church, and of course my sisters and I ran to the back to grab our favorite donuts and chocolate milk. We sat in our usual row, and began with worship. I did not pay in mind what the words were actually meaning, I just always thought the songs we sang were pretty catchy and upbeat. It was not until one of the youth pastors who got on stage that my life would suddenly change forever. He arrived to the mic stand, nervously breathing. I looked closely at his face, and could see tears welling up. I could sense there was something important he was about to say. He asked the congregation this question: “if you were to die, right in this moment or when you leave, where would your soul go?” That question hit my soul like a sharp arrow. I could feel my heart beating in my throat. He then asked for an alter call, and without hesitation I arose and walked to the front. Along beside me, my little sister joined in and we both gave our lives to Christ. 

6 years have passed, but that is one of the days I remember by heart. It has taken me 6 years to fully understand that when  Jesus was crucified, I was crucified with Him. (Galatians 2:20) He forgave my stainful heart, He chose me as one of His own, and has called me His bride. Here are 6 major verses I have lived by over the years I have been saved. 

•”For God so love then world that He gave His only begotten son. So that anyone should believe in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life”. The main verse of the New Testament. God loved me so much that He let His son die for my sins. That is a love I never want to live without. 

•”For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a future and hope.” Jeremiah 29:11. This was one of the very first verses I read and memorized. Right in that moment, I knew God loved me and that my life is secure in His hands.

•”I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13 There were times in my first moments of being saved that I felt afraid, weak, and vulnerable. Reading this verse filled my soul with such hope. God always supplied me with His strength.

•”Guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life.” Proverbs 4:23 my heart needed protection. I was letting too many poisonous things in, until I decided to let my Savior in. He hasn’t and never will leave my heart. 

•”She is clothed in strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future.” Proverbs 31:25. Life comes with unpredictable people and situations, but with God as my ultimate Protector, I need no fear of what the enemy will try to block me with. I am safe in my Lord’s presence. 

•”“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew‬ ‭6:33‬ ‭Over the past years I have seeked earthly value over spiritual value. God has awoken me deeply and has shown me His value of Heaven; which is eternal life. 

Jesus has been my friend, savior, lover, and protector for 6 years. Accepting Him into my life, heart, and soul was the best decision I made. Through so many mistakes, wandering away from my  Sheppard, and suffering through heart break, has been worth it. I was lost, but now I am found in His image. I was blind, but now I see things so clearly in His vision. I was so dark, but now I am shining so bright in His light. Jesus can be all of this for you, won’t you let Him into your heart?