Waiting is REALLY Worth It

I remember that day vividly. On a warm summer evening in July, I was feeling a sudden inspiration all the while being over cumbered with grief from a broken relationship, to start a blog. I excitedly texted my good friend Jinny that I would turn my aching pain into words for a part of my story and she couldn’t have been more thrilled for me. Writing really is a coping mechanism for me to release stubborn emotions. I frantically searched and found multiple sites on how to set up a blog, etc. I picked a site, a name, and what my writing would be based on. I then took it to the next level and clicked on the plus icon to start my first post!

That’s when it hit me.

I knew what I had to write about. I suddenly felt less excited and more anxious and sad. If I were to get my message out there as well as my emotions, I knew I was going to have to face them.

I had to re-experience the pain, anger, fear, and sadness I felt about that broken relationship and to find a way to put them into words and share it with strangers. That was NOT an easy thing to do. I knew I had to turn to God and pray my heart out about it. As time went on, my heart was letting go a lot of intense emotion and I felt an overwhleming peace about my past.

I wrote about my pain and how I coped with it (only through the power of Jesus Christ). I wrote about the seasons I had experienced: my love season with God and the importance of singleness, the pain with dating and to watch out for wolves in sheep clothing, and eventually about my season of severe depression and where I considered suicide last year.

This post today is a loving one. A post that reminds my heart why I started this blog in the first place. I’m sitting here at my black kitchen table with a mason jar full of sweet tea, glancing over at my husband of almost 2 months, just thanking Abba Father above that every tearful, daunting, dark nights I cried from sadness, the days screaming in my car full of anger, and praying and worshiping until my lungs almost collapsed led to this: waiting is REALLY worth it.

I found the love I was looking for in a person, but it goes beyond that. I found someone whom I love getting to drink coffee with every single morning. Whom I love getting to pick groceries and figure out a budget plan with every month. A love that lasts more than a Sunday. 3 years ago I was broken, lost, and then found me. I fell in love with being alone and enjoying me. Now, I fell in love with my husband and never want to be without him.

“Designed for Gratitude.”

We are vastly again, entering the holiday season. When I was a wee bit younger, this time of the year brought me so much joy. The cooler weather (well, the minimum cool air we get here in Florida), the songs about being jolly and bright, and being surrounded by loved ones and most of all, GIFTS. Yet, as I have gotten older and now the age 22, my “holiday perspective” I will call it, has drastically changed. I no longer desire to receive, I desire to give. I desire to be full of gratitude. Which displays while I am calling this blog post ” Designed for Gratitude.” God is a vast, mysterious God. But he is also welcoming and full of love. So, it is no wonder he designed our hearts to be full of praise, worship, and gratitude. So the question you may ask is, “why are we designed for gratitude?”

1) Being grateful makes you happier and healthier.

  • It is easy for all of us to be ungrateful. Magnitudes of bad things happen constantly. It is easy to fall in the trap of fear, doubt, and bitterness. In Psalms 7, David was faced with this very thing. He was in a dangerous pursuit against King Saul. Many acquisitions were made against David about him overthrowing Saul by killing him so he could have the thrown himself. David could have easily become hateful and full of vengeance, but he instead did something spectacular. He decided to give thanks to God instead.
  • The proper response when facing adversity is prayer. Remembering that God is just, loving, kind. He is there in the darkest hour. Your broken praises are heard, and He loves you.
  • 2) Being grateful helps you see more blessings.
  • When we all feel our lowest or our problems seem endless, it is important to take heart.
  • When we choose to seek gratitude above our troubles, we begin to see God’s work. In Psalms 33, David reminds us that because God is our Creator, everything we seek needs to be aligned with His perfect will. He is worthy of our praise. Because God is forever faithful and his word is dependable, we can rejoice, sing, and give thanks.
  • “Always give thanks for all things to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.” Ephesians 5:20
  • “Be full of joy all the time. Never stop praying. In everything give thanks. This is what God wants you to do because of Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.
  • 3) Because there are sad consequences of ingratitude.
  • Webster’s Dictionary defines “Ingratitude” as: “Forgetfulness of, or poor return for, kindness received.” It can also be defined as not appreciating or valuing what you have, or have been given. Unexpressed gratitude is also ingratitude!
  • When we get caught up in our worldly obligations, we begin to develop a worldly perspective. We take our eyes off the cross, and our hearts begin to harden. Daily we face hardships and it is easy to want “more stuff.”
  • Paul wrote to us in the book of Colossians Ch. 2 verse 7 about the importance of being rooted in Christ. He uses the analogy of plants receiving nourishment while being rooted into the soil, so should our own souls be rooted in the Word, so that no enemy can uproot us and let us wither. Have your roots planted deep in Christ. Grow in Him. Get your strength from Him. Let Him make you strong.

So this holiday season, you may be dreading it or excited. But one thing is for certain no matter what circumstance: “We are designed for gratitude towards our Holy God.”