Sometimes we just crave the “when’s” in life.
“When I get this job…”
“When I find the right man/woman…”
“When I pray this specific prayer…”
I will be honest with you, I’m in the guilty party of wanting the when’s. Sometimes though, those “when’s” are more like selfish “wants”.
I often catch myself feeling some heavy negative emotions that cause a selfish stir in my heart. I even get angry at God in my “seasons of waiting.” Which again, I have been lead into. My heart yearns constantly for things my own mind thinks I’m ready for. As always though, our thoughts processes are outweighed by the promises of God. He knows our hearts so much more than we do! So how could we even begin to question his ways or become a little impatient if I may be so blunt? That’s just how the human mind is. We live in a incredibly narcissistic society. A high percentage of people will do anything to get what they desire, especially with the usage of manipulation and fear. That’s not how God wants it! I love the stories of Abraham, Sarah and Hannah. Both sets of people desired a baby! With the gnashing of teeth and screaming cries of prayer, they both obtained a child. The more honoring and inspirational part though is, they gave back to God. Abraham was willing to sacrifice his own son to show his heart still belonged completely to God. Hannah, gave her son back to the temple, only seeing him once a year at festivals. How unselfish that is, right? So that’s how we should be. Our “when’s” need to align with God’s “thy will be done.” His ways are better, higher, and faithful to the last.
“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope;” Psalms 130:5 ESV