Have you ever felt jealousy? I mean, it is a silly question. I believe jealous was wired into our human DNA, but I’m talking about the blood boiling, cheek burning, fist curling kind of jealousy. I can recall a sad time.
I was in my senior year, a lot of my bad times were around this point unfortunately. I was very involved with choir, and every year we had a “masquerade” show where we got to dress up and sing Broadway musicals. Sounds cool right? Well, it was. It was also very competitive. You see, if you wanted to do a solo, you had to pick a specific piece, practice for months on end, and audition for the choir director. (Ps. He was not the nicest man to be around). He was very strict and kind of off putting.
So, for FOUR years I practiced this one particular song. I sang in the shower, in between classes, and on my walks home from school. I got to the audition, confident as ever, and sang my best. My director said I did fairly well and it sounded promising. As the call backs came, I saw that he gave my solo to a junior who was shy and barely knew the words. I cannot even begin to express my jealousy. I let my anger and gossiping take over, and ruined my image with Christ.
Have you ever had a moment of jealousy? Let’s take a look at how God looks at jealousy: “For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and evil of every kind.” James 3:16 NLT
Ouch, right? Evil and disorder of every kind. When Jesus walked the earth, I am sure there were many people, including His own disciples, who were envious of His God given powers. I’m sure Peter wished He was the one to successfully walk on water like Jesus. I’m sure Timothy was jealous that Jesus could heal the sick with just the command of His words. And I’m sure Judas was envious of Jesus’s reputation. But, Jesus didn’t portray His talents to win friends and show off, he did so we could be served and to trust Him. When someone else gets something you want, remember that everyone’s plan is different. As much as I wanted that solo, I know that I was trying to gain self ambition and attention, which would have deceived God. Just remember that God will redeem you, just wait and instead of giving into the green monster of jealousy, ask Jesus to give you His heart so that you can love and support others just as He did.