This post today is a sum up of how I have been feeling this past week. My heart has been enthralled by the fact that I’m still struggling with emptiness that singleness brings. I have been longing for a companion more than ever these past three days, but I heard God speak to me and ask: “what are you doing to be a good companion?” I wasn’t really sure how to answer that question. I looked up to Him and said: “well God, I mean I do follow You. I read your word when I wake and before I go to sleep. I worship you with music. I make sure not to let human experiences overshadow my spiritual experiences.” (having too much fun) I know He is telling me: “while those things are important, Melodie what kind of wife are you wanting to be?”
Wow, okay. So, I have a HUGE question to reflect on. What kind of wife do I want to be? Well of course I want to be a successful wife. I want to make sure that my husband is built up. I want to support, love, and be with him for the rest of my days. I want my children to grow with knowing who Jesus is and that they know they have a mother who cares for them so much. I want my family to come home to a household that is full of peace, love, and of course clean. I want my husband to lay with me at night and look into my wrinkled up eyes and still love the same woman he married 50+ years ago. I want my husband and I to go through struggles so that we have a chance to help each other and pray for each other. Most of all, I want Jesus to be the burning ring that holds my husband and I together. Here are three verses that have helped me reflect the wife I want to be.
Love When I’m Ready: “Don’t excite love, don’t stir it up, until the time is ripe-and you’re ready! Song of song 8:4
As I stated before, I really want to find a partner. I know that my human feelings are yearning after the chemistry romance brings. I know right now if I jump into a relationship, I am going to miss a huge opportunity. This time I have right now is so important because I don’t want to have another 3 year relationship go to an end again because I didn’t take the time to analyze what I really want in a husband. Once I evaluate and seek God and fulfill myself in His wisdom, the more likely we will be able to determine who is really best for me. Also, I could be hurting someone else because I could possibly rush into something someone else is not ready for. A huge, messy heartache could arouse because I chose to rush instead of wait. “Love is patient..”
A Woman of God: “And so, brothers, select seven men who are well respected and are full of the Spirit and wisdom. We will give them this responsibility.” Acts of the Apostles 6:3
God is the number one thing we should live for. Being with someone who is full of God is amazing. They will help you by praying for you. They will go through finances with you knowing that God will always provide. They will always show you love and support. They will forgive every flaw and NOT hold it against you. It’s a wonderful feeling to know that your husband or wife goes out into world building you up to other people instead of tearing you down like most worldly relationships. It’s important to be with someone who is so lost in God. That’s the kind of wife I want to be. I want to examine Christ. My beauty comes from Him. My wisdom comes from Him. My love comes from Him. I am made whole and new because of Jesus.
“I am overwhelmed with joy in the LORD my God! For he has dressed me with the clothing of salvation and draped me in a robe of righteousness. I am like a bridegroom dressed for his wedding or a bride with her jewels.” Isaiah 61:10
God has shown me a new perspective: “be the kind of wife I want you to be.” Marriage is a beautiful gift from God. He created it so that we can all experience growing, laughing, and loving someone. It’s also difficult. Buying a home, raising children, paying bill. It’s very emotionally and physically involved. With God, it can be the most life changing experience that He wants us to have. I will continue to wait and learn how to be this kind of wife. ❤