“You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” Psalms 56:8
I know that this blog post today may seem odd to some, but I can imagine there are some lonely hearts this Christmas Day. While that this miraculous day brings a lot seasons greetings, jolly “ho, ho, ho’s” some of you may be feeling the empty space that is numbing you heart. Or you keep looking at your clock or phone to see if that one perosn will even acknowledge your exsistance. Let me tell you something, Christmas Day is extremely important because it is the birthday of Christ, but let us examine the birth of Him in a different angle.
Jesus was asked to be a knight in battle. While He didn’t ride into Earth on a noble stead, He was chosen to be born through the Virgin Mary and was laid in a rugged stable. On top of that, His “parents” were fearing not only their first born child’s life from the evil Herod, but for each other because what they were doing was against the law. Every first born child was to be immediately killed right after birth. And since Joseph was a descendent of King David, there were more strikes against them. (Luke 2) They traveled so far. Imagine being pregenant, in the dark, and watching your every move so you won’t be caught by the kings guard? I mean, Mary didn’t ask for this to happen. Mary didn’t want to risk her life. She could have rebelled against God and went a different way. She knew that God was watching over her and that everything about Him was good. And so, even though she had her son in the darkness. In the most uncomfortable place you can imagine, she praised God and worshiped Him and bore the Savior of the world.
So today I ask you this, what kind of tears are you crying today? Are they full of joy and cheer? Or sharp pain and bitterness? What are the tears your crying tell you? That you’re alone? Are they saying that one person who is eating at your mind won’t ever contact you? Are you angry at God today? I want to tell you that, if you’re hurting it’s perfectly okay. At the same time, don’t let that infatuated feeling you have cover the truth: God loves you. He loves you so much. He let a sinner give birth to His son. He watched as He let His son heal the sick, make the blind to see, the lame walk with His power. He even watched devastatingly as His son was whipped, beaten, and led to death. HE DID THAT FOR YOU AND ME. “What love is this? That you lay down your life for me? And made a way for me know you?” Kari Jobe.
Today, on this Christmas Day, dwell you a lonely place. Yes, I said lonely place. I’m here right now with some tears on my face. This is my first year spending Christmas single since high school and I’m telling you the pain is real. The comfort Jesus gives…oh sweet comfort. He is healing me right now. I’m crying out to Him and saying “you’re ways are good lord. I will seek your kingdom first. Everything else will be added to me.” Matthew 6:33. Use your pain to worship God. Use it to let Him love you. Use your loneliness to be in His presence. The person you’re worried about will not fulfill you. They will only leave you for wanting more. Use your tears to cry out for God to come into your life.