I am having that kind of week guys. You know, the kind of week where you can’t wear your favorite shirt you’ve been struggling to find. Or you lost your car keys for the 5th time in one day (that’s usually every day for me.) or every little thing sets you off like a ticking bomb, annihilating everything in your path. This week has been a huge storm. Only one word can suffice: anger. I didn’t really realize until today that anger has been one of my biggest sins. While it is healthy and natural for us to have anger, we can let anger lead us into a very dark path, which is so difficult to come out of. Today’s key verse is from Ephesians 4: “And don’t sin by letting anger control you. Don’t let the sun go down while you are still angry, for anger gives a foothold to the devil.” Ephesians 4:26-27
I didn’t realize that I have buried a hatchet for my anger. Meaning that, every new day brings circumstances. Some good, and some have been pretty bad. The more I analyze the bad, I keep a time score in my heart. By doing this I created a black hole, pretty much letting a gateway of not only anger, but the enemy into me. It’s been poisonous and deadly. This week alone I regretfully admit that I have been only seeking the negativity. What in the world do I have to be angry about, if the one thing I have is Jesus? Me being human of course, it’s very difficult to balance spiritual emotions and human emotions. I can get all high and mighty after a good prayer or posting a blog post, but at the end of the day, it’s just me and my emotions. I either let them sit heavily on my heart, burning away my desire to seek God. Or, I can channel that negative emotion into being grateful.
The reason why I name this post “Anger causes Bruises” is today I actually have a huge bruise on my hand from, you guessed it, anger. I came home after work today already fumed from stress and I needed to let it go. I banged my hands very hard on my table, while tears fell down my face. After letting out my last gasp of anguish, I looked at my hand and it has a small, bloody spot on it. I then saw an exact image of what anger can cause: hurt and bruises. It’s so easy for all of us to get carried away into our desires. We constantly ask God to grant us more. Don’t we see, He has given us everything. He gave us Him. He promises us a heavenly home, peace, and to always be with us through the storm.
“Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God!” Psalms 42:11
So, today I decided that I will be grateful instead of resentful. Hopeful instead of regretful. I will raise my hands opened wide instead of in fist because I have the beautiful grace of God in me. We don’t need to be anger, we need to be happy. We need to spread this around. Let’s step away from how the Gentiles were. They only seeked lust and humanly flesh. We need to desire heaven and its King.